General Pickett's letter to his future wife Sallie supposedly written after the order to attack was given.
. . . Well, Sallie mine, the long, wearying march from Chambersburg, through dust and heat beyond compare, brought us here yesterday (a few miles from Gettysburg). Though my poor men were almost exhausted by the march in the intense heat, I felt that the exigencies demanded my assuring Marse Robert that we had arrived and that, with a few hours' rest, my men would be equal to anything he might require of them. I sent Walter with my message and rode on myself to Little Round Top to see Old Peter, who, I tell you, was mighty glad to see me. And now, just think of it, though the old war-horse was watching A. P. Hill's attack upon the center and Hood and McLaws of his own corps, who had struck Sickles, he turned, and before referring to the fighting or asking about the march, inquired after you, my darling.
While we were watching the fight, Walter came back with Marse Robert's reply to my message, which was in part: "Tell Pickett I'm glad that he has come, that I can always depend upon him and his men, but that I shall not want him this evening."
We have been on the qui vive, my Sallie, since midnight; and as early as three o'clock were on the march. About half past three, Gary's pistol signaled the Yankees' attack upon Culp's Hill, and with its echo a wail of regret went up from my very soul that the other two brigades of my old division had been left behind. Oh, God! -- if only I had them -- a surety for the honor of Virginia, for I can depend upon them, little one. They know your soldier and would follow him into the very jaws of death, and he will need them -- right there, too, before he's through.
At early dawn, darkened by the threatening rain, Armistead, Gamett, Kemper and your soldier held a heart-to-heart powwow.
All three sent regards to you, and Old Lewis pulled a ring from his little finger and, making me take it, said, "Give this little token, George, please, to her of the sunset eyes, with my love, and tell her the old man says since he could not be the lucky dog he's mighty glad that you are."
Dear old Lewis -- dear old "Lo," as Magruder always called him, being short for Lothario. Well, my Sallie, I'll keep the ring for you, and some day I'll take it to John Tyler and have it made into a breast-pin and set around with rubies and diamonds and emeralds. You will be the pearl, the other jewel. Dear old Lewis! Just as we three separated to go our different ways after silently clasping hands, our fears and prayers voiced in the "Good luck, old man," a summons came from Old Peter, and I immediately rode to the top of the ridge where he and Marse Robert were making a reconnaissance of Meade's position. "Great God!" said Old Peter as I came up. "Look, General Lee, at the insurmountable difficulties between our line and that of the Yankees -- the steep hills -- the tiers of artillery -- the fences -- the heavy skirmish line -- And then we'll have to fight our infantry against their batteries. Look at the ground we'll have to charge over, nearly a mile of that open ground there under the rain of their canister and shrapnel."
"The enemy is there, General Longstreet, and I am going to strike him," said Marse Robert in his firm, quiet, determined voice.
About 8 o'clock I rode with them along our line of prostrate infantry. They had been told to lie down to prevent attracting attention, and though they had been forbidden to cheer they voluntarily arose and lifted in reverential adoration their caps to our beloved commander as we rode slowly along. Oh, the responsibility for the lives of such men as these! Well, my darling, their fate and that of our beloved Southland will be settled ere your glorious brown eyes rest on these scraps of penciled paper -- your soldier's last letter, perhaps.
Our line of battle faces Cemetery Ridge. Our detachments have been thrown forward to support our artillery which stretches over a mile along the crests of Oak Ridge and Seminary Ridge. The men are lying in the rear, my darling, and the hot July sun pours its scorching rays almost vertically down upon them. The suffering and waiting are .all-lost unbearable.
... Well, my sweetheart, at one o'clock the awful silence was broken by a cannon-shot, and then another, and then more than a hundred guns shook the hills from crest to base, answered by more than another hundred -- the whole world a blazing volcano -- the whole of heaven a thunderbolt -- then darkness and absolute silence -- then the grim and gruesome, low spoken commands -- then the forming of the attacking columns. My brave Virginians are to attack in front. Oh, God in mercy help me as He never helped before!
I have ridden up to report to Old Peter. I shall give him this letter to mail to you and a package to give you if-- Oh, my darling, do you feel the love of my heart, the prayer, as I write that fatal word "if"?
Old Peter laid his hand over mine and said: -- "I know, George, I know -- but I can't do it, boy. Alexander has my instructions. He will give you the order." There was silence, and his hand still rested on mine when a courier rode up and handed me a note from Alexander.
Now, I go; but remember always that I love you with all my heart and soul, with every fiber of my being; that now and forever I am yours -- yours, my beloved. It is almost three o'clock. My soul reaches out to yours -- my prayers. I'll keep up a brave heart for Virginia and for you, my darling.
Your Soldier Gettysburg, July 3, 1863
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